More than listening

I have thought about this quite a bit… Why do I share the gospel? I mean I know I’m told to. Doesn’t christianity boil down to a lot more than obedience? There is this constant reality for me that my motivation should be a sheer pure motivation not obligation. On a daily basis the question is “what is my motivation?” Paul says in Philippians 1 “It is true that some preach Christ out of envy and rivalry, but others out of goodwill. The latter do so in love, knowing that I am put here for the defense of the gospel. The former preach Christ out of selfish ambition, not sincerely, supposing that they can stir up trouble for me while I am in chains” Before I even ask myself about the motivation fo the gospel I preach I must ask myself do I even preach it in the first place. The reality for myself as a Christian is very rarely do I preach the gospel on a daily basis. Do I preach the gospel with my life. It reminds me of the reality that I once learned that the only gospel some people may ever see is my life. Ouch… what is my gospel? Is my gospel (life) preaching the good news of Jesus Christ? Or am I preaching the religion that knows a ton about Christ and can share every scripture about the gospel but not really enJOYing the relationship? So am I even preaching the gospel?
Whats my motivation? Paul says that whether in selfish ambition, vain conceit or out of goodwill at least the gospel is being preached. For one thing at least the gospel is being preached. I know for me this is really hard to say. I think about the guys in the union who yell and I have to find a way to rejoice that the gospel is being preached. The sad reality is that at least he (or she) are preaching the gospel.
May I not only actually share the gospel, but also share it in the love of a broken heart.
“But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice.”